They always said that if you want to know how your girlfriend, partner or wife will look in her old age, just look at her mother. Since I am now past 35, I have finally resigned myself to the fact that I will definitely be like my mother.
Unlike most Filipinas, I am not petite, small-boned or short. I’m taller than most of them although not by much. I have always been considered chubby although I am not obese. Just a little on the fat side, but not too overweight.
Photos from 2014 and 2020
There have been times, though, when it was easy for me to lose weight. I simply skipped eating rice during meals or do not eat after six p.m. and I’d quickly see results in just two weeks. Now, I have tried sooooo many combinations of fasting, diets, exercise, appetite-restricting coffee, pills to no avail. My body will simply not respond to it, no matter how I try. I have tried intermittent fasting, ketogenic, low-carb and a whole lot of nonsense. And of course, with quarantine and no work, that means I have nothing else to do but sleep, eat, cook, watch TV and read. I tried to exercise daily but my back hurt so I stopped. Now, I spend my days loafing around, sleeping at midnight or even later then wake up at 10 am or so.
I read the highly recommended book ‘”The Circadian Code” by Dr. Satchin Panda and even tried to incorporate it in my daily life prior to this pandemic. I really thought I would lose weight through this method and even got an app that guides me when to eat, when to exercise, and when to sleep. The term he uses is Time Restricted Eating (TRE) and is similar to the 16 -hour Intermittent Fasting (IF), although it can be varied to 12, 14 or 16 hour fasts, depending on the person. I learned so much from that book and loved how it explained how our body works and repairs on a daily basis. Sadly, my weight is still the same up to now although I did lose like two kilos at the start. Also, when I’m traveling abroad, I tend to lose weight since I walk most of the time, eat salads more and limit food due to lack of funds. Haha!
So I guess I will have to live with myself and accept the fact that I will not be the ideal woman ever. I will always be carrying around excess fats and I can no longer wear tight clothing, sleeveless tops and the like. Isn’t that too bad?
Mole on my Foot 